Wedding Trailer + Quick Marriage Update

I have watched this video more than a handful of times and each time I cry. One regret I have from that day is that I didn't allow myself to enjoy it enough. Trying not to get caught up in the little details and how you want things to follow through is hard, especially with how my brain works. But I am grateful that we have amazing photos and this video to remind us of how perfect the day was. 

I've been married for almost 5 months now and I'll be completely honest and admit that we've past the honeymoon stage. There are definitely challenging moments. But they are good challenging moments. Arguments are sparse but when they happen, we have managed by the guidance of God to successfully work through them together. We learn every day that it's hard work, and it's not always just about being happy or making each other happy - which we've realized has been such an important lesson for us. Every day, I learn more and more about myself as his wife and the ways I can serve him rather than always expecting him to "serve" me. I also feel grateful that as we've started on our journey in marriage we've had an amazing community group full of other newly wed couples and amazing couple as our mentor. We are beyond blessed, and are absolutely excited for the new chapter in our marriage that God is currently preparing us for. 

Pregnancy Anxiety

In a world where so much caution is placed on pregnant woman about how to take care of our bodies and the growing human inside of us because of all the risks & dangers that can happen inside the womb, I think it only makes sense how much my anxiety has gone up since we found out about baby. 

Although, I don't at all remember freaking out too much about baby's health when I was pregnant with Rylan. This one for sure though, I am constantly wondering how s/he is doing. 

Despite the fact that I can pretty much ask my co-worker to listen to baby at work, I went and bought my own fetal doppler to relieve some of my at home anxiety. Let me tell you, it has been absolutely lovely. Not only does it lift so much anxiety BUT it gives both Matt and I the opportunity to listen to baby every day. 

One of the best purchases so far during this pregnancy.